I really don't know why I'm giving this so much thought. It's not stress really...just a constant stream of "what am i going to wear tomorrow."
I went to Ross and Old Navy tonight, nothing.
I'm going to try Sears, again, and JC Penney. I will eventually get to the motherhood outlet in St. Auggie.
I'm continuing to go thru my clothes and move them onto the closet shelf. I have moved most all of my pants, I have one pair I'm going to wear one more time this week, and then that will be it. Only the maternity ones left.
I have allllways wanted to be pregnant and wear maternity clothes. I have been so excited about this and I still am. Only now, I have to worry about actually looking nice and professional. I never really thought about that before.
Oh well, I'm just going to keep going along, and looking and buying if I see something that will work.
On a different note, I am still feeling really good and eveything seems to be going well. I still haven't felt them move, at least not that I know of, and I am anxiously awaiting it to happen any day. I'm very ready to feel SOMETHING! I'm definitely glad my tummy is growing and I'm showing now though. Pregnancy is being very good to me so far, and I just hope it continues and I can be as good to the babies as they are being to me right now! :-)
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Sunday, September 14, 2008
The Desire to be Comfortable
I have been slowly going through my closet, piece by piece, and moving stuff out as I outgrow it. I made progress this weekend and re-folded a lot of stuff and have it neatly stacked in very high rows at the top of my closet. I was going thru some more stuff tonight and I made a decision - even if I CAN still zip some of skirts, maybe not to the top, but mostly all the way up, I look ridiculous and once I sit down, all day at my desk, I will be uncomfy.
There is no sense in that at all.
I'm pregnant and I need to be comfy, for me and my babies. They don't want to be squished, just so I can wear a skirt suit to work.
Plus, I think without wearing maternity clothes, I look overweight, not pregnant. I just stick out farther, and there'd be no real way to tell I was pregnant. I want people to know and to see my tummy and smile. Not think in their heads that I needed to lose weight.
So that being said, I should be moving the rest of my skirts out. I think that most of my pants have already made the journey, but just in case they haven't, they will be this week.
This does mean though that I have to get some new work clothes, I can't wear black pants every day for the next 4 months, lol....
Happy Sunday!
There is no sense in that at all.
I'm pregnant and I need to be comfy, for me and my babies. They don't want to be squished, just so I can wear a skirt suit to work.
Plus, I think without wearing maternity clothes, I look overweight, not pregnant. I just stick out farther, and there'd be no real way to tell I was pregnant. I want people to know and to see my tummy and smile. Not think in their heads that I needed to lose weight.
So that being said, I should be moving the rest of my skirts out. I think that most of my pants have already made the journey, but just in case they haven't, they will be this week.
This does mean though that I have to get some new work clothes, I can't wear black pants every day for the next 4 months, lol....
Happy Sunday!
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
It could have been...
The babies I felt last night, not sure though. Everyone has said it feels like fluttering, and I felt like I could have been having a muscle spasm of sorts. Just for a quick moment...or make gas bubbles. I just felt something gurgling aruond almost, I might not be making any sense.
I tried to keep feeling it, but I never did.
So I'm not sure it was the babies or not. BUT if it was, I wanted to document, at 9:30 pm last night, on 9/9/08, it COULD have been the first time I felt them.
I tried to keep feeling it, but I never did.
So I'm not sure it was the babies or not. BUT if it was, I wanted to document, at 9:30 pm last night, on 9/9/08, it COULD have been the first time I felt them.
Sunday, September 7, 2008
Materniry Clothes 1, Beth 1
Yes, folks, we are tied now. I went today to try to find some pants for work, as I wore the ones B's mom got me 3 times last week to work. I came out with 2 new pants, BUT - they are both black, as are my other ones. Soooo, I now have 2 pair of black pants. That's Ok though, they are all comfy and I'll change them out. I also got a new shirt, Kohl's had buy one get one free.
On another happy note - we finally got our crib bedding! I have been looking for a looong time now, and finally saw some in person, rather than online, which makes a big difference. I drug Billy to Burlington tonight and we finally agreed on one, so I'm pleased.
We decided to get the same bedding, and worry about individualizing them later, with monogrammed things, and paintings.
All in all, it's been a lovely weekend, and I have felt very productive. Oh yeah - one of the biggest things - I registered!
Janet with me on Saturday morning and I registered at Target and Babies R Us. I got a lot of things, a lot of things I don't even know what they are, but she said to put them on there, so I did. It was fun though. It was nice to spend time with my bf, being productive, and learning from her!
That's it for now!
On another happy note - we finally got our crib bedding! I have been looking for a looong time now, and finally saw some in person, rather than online, which makes a big difference. I drug Billy to Burlington tonight and we finally agreed on one, so I'm pleased.
We decided to get the same bedding, and worry about individualizing them later, with monogrammed things, and paintings.
All in all, it's been a lovely weekend, and I have felt very productive. Oh yeah - one of the biggest things - I registered!
Janet with me on Saturday morning and I registered at Target and Babies R Us. I got a lot of things, a lot of things I don't even know what they are, but she said to put them on there, so I did. It was fun though. It was nice to spend time with my bf, being productive, and learning from her!
That's it for now!
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
3 Years of Bliss
Today is our 3 year anniversary. It seems like it has flown by but it also seems like we've been together forever. We have had a great run with just the 2 of us, and while I am very sorry it's taken a while to get pregnant, I think it's been good, for us to have this time to ourselves. To travel, to go to amusement parks, museums, the zoo, just go and do what we want and enjoy each other. I think that's very important in a relationship, and we have both agreed that we will continue to do these things, even with 2 babies in tow!
On a very different, and sad, note, tomorrow would have been Baby Ava's due date. I know we don't know when she would have been born, but it would have been around now, and I can't help but feel sad for that. She would have been a beautiful, healthy baby girl, that would have been the light of our lives, until our twins came, and then she'd have to share a little! I still feel sad for my family, for Kristin and the baby that we all lost, and still angry at the girl that caused it. But I know that is normal and nautral and Ok, and I'm ok feeling that way. I don't think about it too much, but right now, when it's so close, I do, and I wonder what her life would have been like, how Kristin would have been with her, how our family dynamics would have changed.
*sigh*
I know there's no reason to dwell, but I can ponder I guess...
Anyway, we miss you Baby Ava and always will and I will look forward to the day when I can hold you and love you like we didn't get to do here on Earth.
On a very different, and sad, note, tomorrow would have been Baby Ava's due date. I know we don't know when she would have been born, but it would have been around now, and I can't help but feel sad for that. She would have been a beautiful, healthy baby girl, that would have been the light of our lives, until our twins came, and then she'd have to share a little! I still feel sad for my family, for Kristin and the baby that we all lost, and still angry at the girl that caused it. But I know that is normal and nautral and Ok, and I'm ok feeling that way. I don't think about it too much, but right now, when it's so close, I do, and I wonder what her life would have been like, how Kristin would have been with her, how our family dynamics would have changed.
*sigh*
I know there's no reason to dwell, but I can ponder I guess...
Anyway, we miss you Baby Ava and always will and I will look forward to the day when I can hold you and love you like we didn't get to do here on Earth.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
First trip to the ER during pregnancy
And hopefully the last!!!
I was out to dinner last time with Kristy and Jules, at the Loop, and we were finished eating, just sitting around talking. I was really listening and suddenly, I started feeling weird. I got very hot and very sweaty and I felt like I was being back into a tunnel of some kind. I couldn't hear well and the room looked weird, and I felt sick. It turns out I was about to pass out. I have no idea why, or why it came on, but it was very sudden and I def. felt like I was about to fall out right there in the Loop.
Jules put me in her car and put the air on me so I could cool down. I sat there for a while and we drove around for a few mins, and my arms started to feel heavy and just weird. They decided it would be best to take me to the ER, to make sure everything was Ok and nothing was wrong with my blood pressure, or anything else.
My doctor on call was not helpful AT ALL. Very indecisive and just all around annoying.
So we checked in at 8:30, Billy came up there, and we got home around 1:00am this morning.
The end of the story is that everything is fine, nothing is wrong, all of my blood work and vitals were normal and good, and they attributed the episode to just being part of pregnancy.
It was slightly scary. I wasn't terrified or anything, just confused about what caused it and why it came on so sudden. But now I know it's to be expected and I guess I'll just have to be aware of it in the future.
I stayed home from work today to rest and take it easy. I feel fine overall, but I've been taking it easy on the couch, so tomorrow should be fine. We have a doctor's appt tomorrow too, and I'm so excited for it, to see the babies and see how they're doing!
I was out to dinner last time with Kristy and Jules, at the Loop, and we were finished eating, just sitting around talking. I was really listening and suddenly, I started feeling weird. I got very hot and very sweaty and I felt like I was being back into a tunnel of some kind. I couldn't hear well and the room looked weird, and I felt sick. It turns out I was about to pass out. I have no idea why, or why it came on, but it was very sudden and I def. felt like I was about to fall out right there in the Loop.
Jules put me in her car and put the air on me so I could cool down. I sat there for a while and we drove around for a few mins, and my arms started to feel heavy and just weird. They decided it would be best to take me to the ER, to make sure everything was Ok and nothing was wrong with my blood pressure, or anything else.
My doctor on call was not helpful AT ALL. Very indecisive and just all around annoying.
So we checked in at 8:30, Billy came up there, and we got home around 1:00am this morning.
The end of the story is that everything is fine, nothing is wrong, all of my blood work and vitals were normal and good, and they attributed the episode to just being part of pregnancy.
It was slightly scary. I wasn't terrified or anything, just confused about what caused it and why it came on so sudden. But now I know it's to be expected and I guess I'll just have to be aware of it in the future.
I stayed home from work today to rest and take it easy. I feel fine overall, but I've been taking it easy on the couch, so tomorrow should be fine. We have a doctor's appt tomorrow too, and I'm so excited for it, to see the babies and see how they're doing!
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Maternity Clothes shopping 1, Beth 0
Well, me and Billy went to the mall yesterday so I could buy some black work pants and a new bra. Last week, some of my pants seemed to just not fit anymore, so I decided it might be time to move into the maternity ones...not every day, but some days.
Well it didn't work out too well. The associates in Motherhood Maternity were NOT what I had hoped for, and they were not interested in helping me at all. I didn't actually ASK anyone for help, but still, no one even greeted me.
We made our way around to several other stores, Billy tried to get me into fancy Dillard's and get help from them, which I declined. We went to Sears, and I found a rack of bras, tried them on, and...they just weren't right. All of them are nursing bras, which obviously I don't need yet. The pants I tried on were too big, and looked stupid.
So we left. I gave up and will try again in another week - 2 weeks. I'll deal with what I have for now and on those days when the pants are just too tight, I'll wear something else!
Well it didn't work out too well. The associates in Motherhood Maternity were NOT what I had hoped for, and they were not interested in helping me at all. I didn't actually ASK anyone for help, but still, no one even greeted me.
We made our way around to several other stores, Billy tried to get me into fancy Dillard's and get help from them, which I declined. We went to Sears, and I found a rack of bras, tried them on, and...they just weren't right. All of them are nursing bras, which obviously I don't need yet. The pants I tried on were too big, and looked stupid.
So we left. I gave up and will try again in another week - 2 weeks. I'll deal with what I have for now and on those days when the pants are just too tight, I'll wear something else!
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